I've been back on plan since the end of June, and something is just different this time! My whole mentality towards losing weight has changed. I have come to the realization that this is a LIFE change not a diet and that its okay to have bad moments or bad days, and the biggest change is that those bad times don't throw me off track anymore. The old me, after having junk food or not working out, would just give up and I'd feel so guilty after every piece of crap I ate. If I had a bad day, I wouldn't dare enter it in my food journal, I guess I thought if I couldn't see it, it didn't happen. However, the new me tends to think much differently. For July, I did really really well, YES there were bad moments and some "bad" food thrown in as a treat, BUT if I had a bad meal - I would get back on track the next moment I could rather than thinking "well I've already screwed up today so now I can eat whatever I want". I don't think that way anymore!!
I get back on track the next chance I get and am fully confident that I'm going to succeed this time. Even if I do have a bad day, I still journal it. Something has really clicked for me, I dont want those bad foods anymore and if i'm having a bad enough craving, I'll have it and it will taste good but I know its a treat, not just eating it because its there and its easy. And for working out, I can't get enough of it.. I know I haven't lost much weight yet but its how I feel.. I feel great, I already feel like a new person and I can't wait to see how I feel as I progress further along this journey. I'm actually happy with my new lifestyle and don't feel deprived at all... That to me is amazing.. As before, I always felt deprived when "dieting". I know that its going to work this time... Prime example, I didn't get to the gym this week as I was working the late shift at work... but I'm headed right back there today, rather than giving up. For eating, I've had a horrible past couple of days and honestly I don't feel guilty, I know I'm doing really well and they're in the past.. done with and that's life. NOW, I'm right back on track. I think I've finally accepted that treats/bad food will always be a part of your life and the key is moderation. It doesn't mean because I've had a bad meal or day, that my whole plan is ruined.. Far from it actually, its helped me make the distinction that this really is a lifestyle change and I think its working for me..
My grocery cart looks great these days... I'm making such wonderful choices and like I said before, I feel great! I havent' said that in years and that's how I know its different this time. I've never been more committed to anything in my life, and I WILL DO THIS! ****, I AM DOING THIS! And, I couldn't have done it without you guys... THANK YOU! Thank you for being there and welcoming me back to this board with open arms! Every person here has helped me in some way or another and you deserve a pat on the pack for helping it "click".
Sorry for the rambling.. had to get this off my chest.. I'm proud! I'm doing it for Real this time!
Yay for Celina! 
I wish I was well spoken for your words moved me. 
) Ok, now I need to come up with your very own fighter name for when I repost another Rocky Challenge! I think you're doing great, Mez -- it takes time and repetition to change old behaviors and create a new habit. I can completely relate to work-out's being hard. I struggle with that, too, but I just tell myself that I'm going to feel so great about myself afterwards -- and I feel it during, too! It's just the getting there part that's the toughie! But we'll get there together, as long as we support each other! I think you're doing great, I really do. Don't be hard on yourself.....and make sure to come here and share. None of us is perfect, and we all have off or hard days.....we can all relate, I promise!! 