Hi, my name is Kristi and I've been a Christian all my life. The Lord has loved me through a painful childhood that included an alcoholic father and a very co-dependent mother who acted throughout my childhood as if her life would have been wonderful if she just hadn't gotten married. Of course to a child this translates into happiness = no children. Jesus carried me through my own drinking problems as a young adult right into the wonderful life I now lead. Married to a good man with 4 beautiful children ages 4, 7, 8, and 10. Two boys and two girls. I've been a stay at home mom for 10.5 yrs. I am the Sun.School co-ordinator, VBS director, and have taught Sun. school for 6 yrs. My church and my faith are central in my life. With God's help I'm even conquering the power food has held over me for most of my life. Sounds all so terrific I'm almost embarrassed to ask for your prayers and possibly your support and friendship. I would like you to pray for my strength to let go of my need for my mother's approval. Although we have what outsiders would call a good relationship it's really just a fake. I had 13 guests for Easter dinner. It was a mix of both mine and my husband's families plus our Pastor and his wife. Dinner was delicious, conversation flowed, and we all had a lovely time. Today my mother called and the only comment my mother made about Easter was how nice it was of my sister-in-law to do the dishes for me. (this sister-in-law is married to my mother's favorite) Don't misunderstand me, it was wonderful that she did dishes, but my other sister-in-law stood side by side with her and did the dishes as well. No praise for her. Why not? No praise for me either. I'm the only one in our family that has small children. My husband and I also are financially less well off than the rest. Why couldn't she have told me that it was nice of me to host dinner. No, the only comment I got was why did I put the salads before the meat and potatoes in my buffet line? Where were they suppose to go? I hope your not running scared from me right now. I just want you to pray that her approval not mean so muchto me. Until she called today I had such a wonderful feeling about how Easter had gone. I still do mind you, it's just dimmed now. Does anyone out there have a relationship with their mother or some other important person in their life that resembles mine and my mom's.
Thanks for letting me whine to you. I know at nearly 40 yrs. old silly little things like this shouldn't matter any more, but some things are proving hard to shake.
PAX,
Kristi