Hi all, I haven't posted here for awhile. Anyway, I decided to give Weight Watchers another try. So far, it's going ok. I'm down 4.4lbs so far. That was over the course of 2 weeks. I am NOT happy about it whatsoever. For my size I feel like I should have lost way more.
Anyway, my mood has been low. I am not 100% sure why. I guess I just wish I could lose weight faster. I just have this vision of how I want to look, and the type of clothes I want to wear, and I just want it NOW. I just feel like a worthless girlfriend and mother. I just feel like I could be so much better if I was thin/skinny.
When I first did Weight Watchers for the first time 10 years ago, my heart was totally into it. I was excited, it was new, I became obsessed and passionate about it... and now it's just like "meh" to me. I hate that it's that way to me. I want it to be exciting to me. I want it to be an adventure. Maybe part of it is because we are struggling a bit financially (thank God I can even afford Weight Watchers, I was going to try on my own, I mean I did, but I NEED the actual meeting in order to be accountable). If we had more money then I could actually prep more meals and maybe have more fun with it. I don't know. I've just been crying almost every day. I want to be happy that I am losing weight and I can't even be happy about that... has anyone else ever felt this way?