Hi everyone - I hope things are going well/will improve soon!
I'm here, but I don't have much to report...besides the fact that I need to get my butt working out again.
Actually, I do. Happened tonight -
I saw a picture of me and my friend freshman year. We were both overweight, but that obviously didn't matter to each of us (we're still friends to this day). I sent it to her and I was joking around saying how I must've gotten her fat (she lost a ton of weight and looks great, although she was a teeny bit more to go). We laughed and then I said, "Wow, I looked so skinny!" with the laughing emoji after it. She replies, "Yeah you did."
It kind of hurt me I guess, but I probably interpreted it the wrong way. I know she would never hurt me because she knows what it was/is like, but it's just how she worded it with nothing following it. It's still bothering me a lot actually and it was only 3hrs ago. I'd say something, but I don't want to cause anything or make her feel bad.
Oh well, onward!
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Alright, I'm adding more. I just need to let these thoughts out to someone/people other than the 2 people I usually talk to.
I feel alone because everyone is off at school, making new friends, having a great time. Here I am, at home, no new friends, not really having a great time (I commute to school - community college). Every time I see a picture of my friend(s) hanging out with their new friends, I feel really upset (and part of that is jealousy I guess). None of my friends really talk to me anymore unless we have something to say - the complete opposite of even 1yr ago. We ALWAYS talked, no matter what time it was or even if we didn't have anything to talk about. They're all off with their new friends and I feel left behind/left out. Even when I get together with a friend when they're home, they still spend the time texting/talking to other people. It makes me feel worthless, as I guess I don't mean much to them anymore. Maybe this is a sign that it's time to start taking them out of my life and move on. I'm on the quiet/introverted side anyway, but I just feel upset that I finally found happiness my senior year, and now it's all gone because of new friends. My dad always told me that once college starts, people will go their own way and you won't talk to these people anymore. I guess he's right, because I'm living it right now. I really don't know what else to do. The problem with community college is, everyone is older than me/they have jobs/they have families/etc. It really isn't a "social hangout" and isn't a place to make everlasting friendships. You show up, go to class, and go home/to work/etc.
I just don't feel happy right now and I'm not sure how to go about fixing anything. Maybe it's a sign to start letting them "go" and moving on with my life, not worrying about them and their lives.