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Originally Posted by kiwi1222
I don't mean to sound whiney and hopefully I can chalk this up to being an emotional wreck since cutting my caloric intake but I am feeling a lot of resentment towards my boyfriend that 2 days in a row asked if we could have pizza for dinner. He is the guy that wants to gain weight while I am the girl who has been overweight her whole life. I LOVE PIZZA. I only started my caloric drop 5 weeks ago so its safe to say that the cravings are still very real. I do so much planning with meal planning and scheduling workouts to not have to think about the cravings. Yesterday I basically said "I was about to start cooking dinner" and he was so tired that he dealt with it and I was like, "phewwww." Tonight just as I was about to put my chicken and veg on the grill he asks again about pizza. I said, "YOU can have pizza." I guess Im more than annoyed and saddened because I usually leave him little notes in his lunch bag and the one today mentioned that I am really glad he didn't order pizza last night bc every day is a struggle. Now Im sitting here fighting back tears because I really want some effing pizza and the anxiety of when the delivery guy will show up in about 20-30 minutes is driving me insane. I don't want chicken and veg. Im sure it will be great but I want pepperoni effing pizza. I'm sorry that I am being a whiney brat, but I am just not feeling the support I wish I had at this beginning stage considering he has a lot to do with what made me start this journey. Feeling sorry for myself
You are not being whiny or irrational, he on the other hand is being subconsciously or consciously insensitive. This isn't one of those "dump that zero girl" posts lol, because you could just as easily be describing a family member. I think it is very natural for people around you to attempt to sabotage you. Sometimes I don't think it's even intentional in any way, they are just doing them (if he likes pizza he likes pizza, may not be to tempt you) but often times there is an intention to get you to join in as well.
I know because I live w/my mom *sighs* who is very overweight like me and while I've tried to encourage change, she's not very interested. That said, she has brought home many things that I would normally eat, like vegetable fried rice & vegetable pizza (I'm lacto-ovo vegetarian, my mom LOVES meat lol) so these were clearly for me even though she claimed it wasn't. I used to succumb to temptation and be mad at myself, but now I am a lot stronger willed when it comes to the issue because I know that greasy fried rice isn't doing anything good for my body. Now when I have a bad day it's not usually on eating Doritos and Hershey bars but eating too much health conscious food like Beanitos Puffs, Chobani yogurt, Kind bars, etc. which is still something I'm working through, but it reminds me of the saying "Next time fail better..." progress, not perfection.
I know everyone is doing something different here, the main thing we have in common is trying to reduce our weight, and hopefully be healthier. That said, I do calorie-counting and I try to eat foods that are conducive to good health (nothing to do with vegetarianism, because most of the past 8+ years I've spent as a vegetarian I ate super unhealthy, fried cheese sticks, brownies in ice cream, etc. health wasn't the goal, and my weight ballooned up to 350 lbs.) . With diabetes, cancers, strokes, etc. in my family and my having PCOS, I try to choose foods that taste good but also nourish me. All of that said, I still eat pizza (usually from Pizza Hut
) and while it may not have helped my weight loss, it didn't destroy it either. I'm a firm believer in making whatever plan you're following liveable to maintain your results for life. If you love pizza, and you can't enjoy the occasional slice (or 2
) without it destroying all of your hard work, I'd see what else is out there as far as weight loss plans.
Back to your boyfriend, just tell him that you're trying really hard to eat healthier and you need him to be onboard, he can have his pizza, but try to do it when you're not around. Hopefully he'll get the message.