Hey thanks for starting this thread. I've always wanted to start a thread like this but was too scared
I've been diagnosed with body dysmorphic disorder and struggled with various eating disorders since I was very young. I developed bulimia and anorexia in middle school and went through phases of starving, binging, and purging until I was sent to an eating disorder treatment center a few years ago. Fortunately I was able to eat again and stopped the purging BUT I then started binging like crazy and ballooned up to 200lbs. Its been an incredible struggle and balancing act to lose weight in a healthy way
Recently I started relapsing and have upped my calories and am trying to not focus so much on losing weight but just being healthy. Its really a daily struggle because I've noticed that the thoughts never leave. And the struggle for control is always there. I'm actually really embarrassed by it and just wish I could be "normal".
girl18-I did not have a Catholic upbringing, I was raised 7th Day Adventist.
Nicholas-Well to get over feeling guilty I suggest thinking about how the food is nourishing you and practice mindful eating. I know what you mean about not feeling "right" unless you're kind of empty....I try to aim for moderation and focus on how even though feeling empty feels good in the moment it hurts me from completing daily tasks and exercising in the long run.