I've weighed 250-260 for a whole year now. I actually just cancelled my gym membership because I'm going to school full time and babysitting, and I'll need all the extra cash I can get while I don't have permenant residency here in Canada...yeah, all the gyms are at 60$ a month here.
So I don't have a gym option. HOWEVER I do not own a car, so I walk almost everyday. I do take the bus but only if I'm going somewhere far.
The reason why I'm going crazy is because it's insane how I just cannot diet. I can't even stand the word. I have tried for MONTHS to do something I can do, but I just can't bring myself to restrict or calorie-count. It's so daunting. I know, you might tell me to 'suck it up, c'mon you just got to do it', and I want to so bad I really do. I just don't know what to do!
I'm in such an intense time in my life, even though I'm in a good enviroment where I live right now with my fiance. But things back in the states are terrible for my family. I am doing a full online course-load and I'm so stressed about my family, and also my job, and between all of those my body is screaming to not take anything away from it. To just give it what it wants.
I have continued to weigh in the same ballpark (I weighed myself 2 weeks ago) and I was at 260lbs. I got down to 250 last November.
But the strange thing is, I know that my body has changed a lot because the clothes are a tiny bit tighter than what they were last year. But maybe it's all in my head, or at least part of it, because I can still wear the clothes just fine. There's just a new layer of small fat I've noticed and I just can't stand it, it brings me to tears.
tl;dr: I need some major words of encouragement and help for somebody who is overstressed and needs a simple plan to lose weight without a gym membership. Money is tight especially with paying for school, so I need a plan that doesn't cost so much money.
I don't live with someone who would diet with me or is interested in eating the food that I would eat.
Some words of advice would be so good to hear!