Oh hon, I'm totally there with you right now.
I'm currently 7 months along with my first baby and had a horribly "fat" weekend.
I don't have any casual clothes that feel even remotely flattering on me right now. I honestly don't mind looking pregnant, but in my head I simply looked and
felt fat as I lumbered around all weekend.
While one of the main reasons I was losing weight had to do with wanting to have a healthy pregnancy (I miscarried last year), it was so frustrating for it to happen when I'd made so much progress yet was still so far away from my goal. I was at my lowest weight since junior high and felt for the first time ever I was
finally starting to get a figure! Then I was hit with the sudden realization that I'd be spending the rest of the year watching my belly grow.
Having to shift my goals from weight loss to weight
gain has been a total mind**** for me, but I've found ways to cope. First off, whatever I do has to be good for the baby, whether it be exercise, eating, or getting proper rest. Although I wasn't counting calories as I was losing, I actually started once I found out I was pregnant to ensure that I'm eating enough, yet not too much. Here is a great
pregnancy calorie calculator that will tell you approximately how many calories you need daily for every trimester, something that's been an enormous help to me. I've also spoken with my doctors about what exercises are safe for me to do as well as how much I should be gaining. I'm currently one of the leaders of my local TOPS group, and even though I have to be gaining I'm continuing with the weekly meetings in order to stay accountable and make sure I'm gaining the right amount.
I'm so looking forward to a healthy baby sometime before Christmas, and I'm also looking forward to doing everything I can from now on to be an active, healthy mom for him. I still have plenty of "fat" days like I did this weekend, but in the grand scheme of things, I'm in a much healthier mindset now than I was a few years back. It'll pass! Despite having to take a break from the weight loss, things are only getting better for all involved. I've worked so hard on keeping this mindset throughout the pregnancy so I can get right back on the wagon when it's time.
I don't aim for perfection, I just try to do my best every day. And some are admittedly better than others.
I do find myself indulging more often than I'd like, but I've become great at balancing things out over time. I also think it's normal to have plenty of "fat" days in our situation, so chin up! You've got so much to look forward to with a beautiful baby on the way. I know it sucks to have to wait on getting where you want your body to be, but in the grand scheme of things, this will only be a small blip on the radar. Hang in there!