I wish I could give you a big dose of self esteem.
My husband began dating me when I was at my highest weight, 248 lbs. It didn't help that he was a tiny man of around 140 lbs. We had known each other in college, had a class together back before I had gained all the weight. Life made our paths cross again after my husband and I seperated, then again when he and his spouse seperated. He asked to call me and talk, I figured id be the fat friend giving him support and helping him thru a tough time.
Needless to say after a month of daily talks and emails we had lunch,didn't know it was a date..until later that night he called me and nervously told me he was interested in me "romantically" I was dumbfounded and asked are you sure? I thought it was a joke and never even once thought about that type or relationship. He said he didn't want to lose me to someone else and asked me on a first office date. It didn't happen for another month because I was terrified and ashamed with myself. My husband was affectionate. Loving, caring, and full of compliments when I was that large.
If anything he gave me more compliments and told me daily I was beautiful and he loved me. Fast forward to my lowest weight.weight. He did understand looked and that I was uncomfortable with myself and hat when we were intimate he tried not to make me feel uncomfortable or guarded he told me I was beatiful, loved me, wanted me, and thru his actions, support, and attention I never doubted it.
The issue in our relationship was with me he didn't care about the weight it was me that couldn't accept it. I lost the weight on my own and while proud of me he always reminds me he never ever saw the weight. We are intimate all the time, we were before. However, the loss of weigh has made me more open and confident which he finds sexy because instead of always trying to hide myself I now share all of me and don't cringe when he touches certain areas.
Sorry for the huge paragraphs, typing in kindle it difficult to space and see what I'm typing