Something's working. And its making me crazy trying to figure out WHAT it is. I've given it a lot of thought - and I really think its because this time I finally feel like there are people behind me. I feel like Greg DOES love me no matter what, but also that he UNDERSTANDS, and he put some time and effort into figuring out and telling me what he thinks is the only thing that's going to work for me. I think its also that my dad gave me the slap to the head that I needed to finally let a lot of baggage that was weighing me down go. I think that divying up the chores around the house has eased a lot of the pressure I was under - and also realizing that getting up at 6:30 is NOT GOING TO KILL ME. (But that one WAS hard.) I think its just wanting to kick this thing, and prove TO MYSELF that I CAN DO THIS, and that I CAN FINISH SOMETHING. I think its doing the pedometer thing - I want that sucker to have as many steps on it as humanly possible!! I think its realizing that I know how to do this, I just have to DO IT, and that doing it halfway is only going to get halfway results.
I don't want to be super skinny, I don't want to wear single digit clothing - I just want to be rid of the bat wings on my back - and my huge stomach - and to be able to finish that 20 mile Walk For Hunger if I feel so inclined.
Now to bottle this feeling and thoughts up for future use.
What is your ding moment??? What thoughts and ideas are you using to keep yourself going?? let's put them here to reference in the future. Please feel free if you hear me moaning and groaning to direct my attention BACK to this thread