I think this speaks to my unhealthy relationship with food so it is something I need to explore.
Do any of you develop food guilt - and not the "Wow I totally ate too much pizza, I'm such an oinker" way. I always feel guilty for what I eat. I know I shouldn't be eating "fake" foods and having done a Whole30 I know how great my body feels when I stick with it - but with 3 kids who don't eat that way sticking with it is a struggle for me. I feel like there are so many foods that are bad for you, high fructose corn syrup, soy, wheat products, food dye etc. With 3 kids though and one who has a sensory disorder that partially revolves around food texture sometimes we struggle with healthy choices.
Sometimes I feel like because I am so big people watch every bite I put in my mouth and they judge me. When I eat healthy I still feel that way.
I'm working really hard this time around to get out of that space in my head and see food as nutrition plain and simple. I'm doing WW this time around and simply focusing on eating my points and getting my healthy guidelines in but I know I need to figure out a way to fix this guilt I feel over having a Sugar Free pudding sometimes or putting 2 tbsp of Cool Whip Chocolate frosting over my strawberries occasionally.