Does anyone else out there feel like it's totally impossible to effectively diet when you have PCOS? I've been struggling with my weight for my whole life and I'm pretty sure I've been on every diet under the sun. Jenny Craig, Weight Watchers, Slimfast, Nutrisystem, Medifast, the list goes on and on. Each time I was on these diets (these EXPENSIVE diets) I lost maybe 15-20 lbs. While the people around me who are overweight decide to diet with me and lose 50-60 lbs. They tell me "you must not be doing it right" or "you're obviously cheating on the diet." And I'm not! It's so frustrating and makes you feel like such a failure. Well this has been my story for the last ten years, until a year ago I was diagnosed with PCOS and insulin resistance. I was put on Metformin 750mg/twice a day. I was excited when my doctor told me that this would help me lose weight as long as I was dieting and exercising. Fast forward 9 months to my wedding day. I am twenty pounds HEAVIER. In the next two months after my wedding, I moved away from everyone I knew to a very small town in Southern Louisiana. After gaining 5 pounds I have come to the point of taking this more serious than I ever have. I'm ready to be over this PCOS garbage and live a normal healthy life. I want to get pregnant, but as long as I am in what I call "the danger zone" (teetering on type two diabetes) it can't happen. This has become my motivation. In the last month, I have (what feels like) basically starved myself. I eat just enough to not be sick. I have replaced two meals a day with Slimfast shakes, snack on raw veggies or low sugar fruits, and a high protein dinner with another side of veggies. It was really hard at first to completely cut out breads and other high carb foods, but as time passes, I find that I crave them less and less. While I'm not GAINING weight, I feel like I've hardly lost any. I started at 247 lbs. and I'm down to 242 lbs. Most of which I feel like is simply water weight. I have considered weight loss surgery, but with my BMI being slightly under the requirement, and it being so expensive, I don't know that I can. Besides, I want to do this on my own, with surgery being a last resort.
It's so hard to stick with a diet like this and just give up when you don't see or feel any results. Is anyone else going through this? Or has gone through this and has some advice? I so badly want to be out of the danger zone and to get to a point where I can look in the mirror without remembering how much I hate what I have done to myself.