Hi, I am new to posting and have been following along the previous months of binge free challenges and now want to participate in one. I have been waiting around today to see one for March, but since one hasn't been started yet I thought I would start it. For me it is day 0, meaning I have already succumbed to a binge today. I have struggled with binging for about 12 years now, however I have never been overweight. Currently I am 116 pounds at 5'4.5" and am quite satisfied with my weight and fitness but not satisfied with my binging. I have tried to figure out for years why I do this. It started in my late teens due to poor body image and restricting my food trying to be as thin as others. Now, I seem to binge sometimes just because I can. I know I can get away with it once a week or so without it really affecting my weight too much, and so it's tough for me to have the incentive to stop.
But I really want to stop. I feel binging has kept me from living a normal life. I have said like others that I will never binge again, and sometimes feel as though I am cured, only to have that zombie take over once again. I am hoping posting on a forum like this will make me accountable. I am not sure I will ever be completely binge free, but it would be nice to go a few months between episodes.