I have spent the last year accepting that I had an alcohol problem that needed attention. I also quit smoking and have been trying to get healthy.
The road to weight loss has been longer than expected. I have had to work through unhealthy dieting attempts, healthy but too low calorie for my body, attempts at mindful eating that ended in weight gain, the realization that I have a problem with binge eating, separating exercise from weight loss...pushing through all those times where I just want to give up and stop trying.
So many things, and the past few months I've been really grounding myself mentally and physically. I was doing yoga and meditating, exploring what my true feelings about spirituality and faith are and basically just figuring out what I need to do to get myself healthy and happy. I haven't seen weight loss yet, and it's upsetting but it's because I haven't been trying very hard.
I've been seeing this guy for the past three weeks and it made me start to think...should I even be dating? I really like him, but with work, college and my attempts to lose weight I don't feel like it's a necessary distraction. We haven't even decided if we're dating and I'm constantly wondering if I should bring it up or what's going to happen. It's a major distraction and on top of that I have to deal with him seeing my body. I'm pretty confident and he has not expressed dislike but I still have that old voice in the back of my head wondering if I'm just a distraction for him until something better comes along...
And all of those thoughts are distracting, especially when I was finally seeing inside myself and reaching a place where I was making so much progress mentally and physically. I really didn't think I was going to be in this situation for a long while, considering I rarely go out except with good friends.
So...I'm not really asking what you think I should do, but what do you all think? How do you feel about dating/seeing someone when you're trying to focus on loving yourself first?