Kelly, just another question. Are your stats correct? If so you are not in too bad a range now and may want to phase off and go to mainenance for a while. Then maybe come back for the final assault when you feel more stabalized.

Everyone posts were valid & kellycg102, what you posted took alot of courage and you probably helped others who are too scared to admit what is going on. I'm glad you are open to suggestions, and that you are going to get those books. I would like to "strongly" suggest that you see someone regarding your compulsive bingeing and eating. Even if it's just for 1 or 2 visits, see someone who specializes in eating disorders (this is my unprofessional opinion - but I am a IP coach who has some experience dealing with this) if you were my client, I would recommend this.
Sometimes emotional issues need more help than a book can provide or these boards. They are great tools to help support you, but I think you would benefit from a counselor that specializes in eating disorders. Good luck to you!!! Keep us posted on your progress.

All the best, Pam

All I can say is that you are great for trying to figure it out now!

I am starting over again. It hurts to type this, but I lost 30 lbs in the summer of 2011 and slowly gained 50 lbs back. I am to the point now that I know I have to do it. I am going to download the books that were recommended!

I was on Wellbutrin a couple years ago. It actually made me lose my appetite, so I didn't gain weight. But it didn't do anything for my anxiety.

Unfortunately my stats are not accurate. I will get the guts up to change them thank you for your suggestion

Thank you Pam. I agree I do need to see someone. I have looked at over eaters anonymous, and thought of an addictions counsellor....I haven't come across an eating disorder counsellor yet but will keep looking. Appreciate the time you took to offer your opinion


It sucks I know.....I would love to just eat to survive.....I think of food all day long!! Regaining is what I have alway done. Good for you for getting back on.....wishing you luck

Forgot to mention I did read that most people lost one Wellbutrin but I am concerned about it because from what I understand it is for depression and can cause or make anxiety worse.....I have enough of it so don't need a boost. Plus I read it can make people moody and angry and I have tendencies to get like that too so worried it would enhance that too. I think I have to try something tho, even for a little while.



I know what your saying. I was just really taken back loosing 50lbs, being the smallest I have ever been,loving how I looked and felt....and my eating issues didn't fix.....like I said I binge worse now then ever. So frustrating....I just didn't expect it at all!
You have done so well, glad you were able to work on some of your issues and you are on a road to happiness for yourself. Life long work for sure!! Thank you

I have found a counsellor specializing in eating disorders, now just waiting for the phone call for an official appointment! First step! Thank you all

This is one thing that I'm extremely worried about once I get into Phase 4 of this diet.

I love food so much so I'm super worried that once this diet ends and I can eat whatever I want, I'll do just that. I'm hoping that once I get there, I'll be willing to work out a lot more to maintain my weight and also continue to eat healthy. Especially since I've found recipes that I really do enjoy and they make it seem like I don't really need cheese or breads back in my life.

I just know that I've had a couple of cheats since I've started and although there hasn't been many and I've been losing weight and I feel HORRIBLE afterward, it's really easy for me to eat a Hershey's kiss, especially when it's so readily available.

You will find you ease into phase 4 and add things back carefully. It is not like plunging off the deep end suddenly so it is not really terribly frightening.

Good luck to you! You deserve peace.

Pam

Thank you for sharing. I have been roller coasting for the last few weeks. Even on cheat days I feel guilty and then because I feel guilty I want to eat and then I feel guilty again. Each one of you has accomplished amazing things - I guess we all need to remember that - and more importantly remember to be kind to ourselves. Praying for each and everyone of you both in your trials and in your success . . . praying for peace.

Kelly, don't worry about updating your stats, I was just thinking if they were right you were getting yourself extremely stressed over a few pounds. Actually I was talking to myself too because I am up to 135 from 130 and need to stop the upward spiral quickly.

This was a great post Kelly!

Kelly, it's clear that you're not alone. My anxiety gets me into all sorts of trouble, including food problems. I see it now as a coping, self medicating issue and not a "diet" issue. But, unlike drugs or alcohol, we need to eat right? So it's complex...counselling is key for me, control the anxiety and control the food issues. I did meds too, but am currently weaning off. Bottom line? You just reached out, which is much more than most people do, so you're already ahead. It will get better now.
My problem is that I wake up and think that the weight has all come back!! Or that with every bite I take, I'm gaining the weight back! Crazy I know, but nevertheless, I push those feelings aside and do this one day at a time. Oh, and then I come here and lean on my peeps

Am going to download it on my kindle tonight. thanks

I don't post much either but I can totally relate. I want to lose another 15 lbs so I'm trying to start up again. It's really hard and so easy to say "I'll start tomorrow."

I've just started to read "The Beck Diet Cure" which deals mostly with the psychological side of dieting. I'm trying to do it step by step because emotional and binge eating are a life time habit of mine and it literally makes me sick (headaches, stomach aches, etc). I don't want to be like that anymore. There is a forum on this site for people who are following this book.

Also one of my all time favorite books is by Julia Ross called Mood Cure. It talks about brain chemistry and how depression and anxiety can cured with amino acid supplements. It's a little complicated for me to explain on here but i had times when I was irrational upset and anxious about things or just flat and depressed. I followed her suggestions for a few months and feel TONS better. The supplements she suggested are not forever. Just til you get your brain balanced. It's worth a try if you don't want to be on medication just yet (not that there is anything wrong with medication).

REgardless what you do, good luck and know you are not alone and that many, many people feel the same way.

I'm off to check out some of the book mentioned in this thread.