So the other day when i weighed myself, i was down 37 lbs, but i JUST realized tonight, I don't have well over 100 lbs to lose anymore. I can't even describe how that feels, to realize i only have 93 lbs left to lose out of starting out needing to lose 130. It was such a daunting number.
Once i realized that, i started doing a few calculations, I only have 56 lbs left to lose until i reach the weight i was just 6 weeks after I had my son. That is HUGE! Which means it's only 56 lbs until i'm hoping to squeeze back into my size 11 jeans (which are still tacked up to my bedroom wall lol). I'm beyond excited for that day when i can slip them on and wear them out lol.
Of course then i did a few more calculations and once i lose the next 56 lbs, it's only 37 until i hit goal, and seeing that weight spread out in those two smaller increments is , I don't even know how to feel lol Happy and excited is not the words i'd use, i'm beyond those feelings lol.
The one thing i am slightly afraid of is still seeing myself as "that fat chick", even right now i see the changes but it's completely surreal, how do you cope ?