I take the bar exam in less than one week, and it seems as though everything else is crashing down on me now. (Ex-husband issues, financial difficulties, kid drama, car issues, etc. Not really more than I usually deal with, but my emotional energy is so sapped right now, it feels overwhelming.) Been doing well foodwise anyway, but I am on the edge this afternoon. Plus, I have a urinary tract infection right now, which is a little stressful for an exam that includes four 3-hour periods that are both time-crunched and super-restrictive on when you can use the bathroom.
I feel like I have two choices. If I start eating, I feel like I won't stop. Then I'll get the post-binge feelings of helplessness and frustration to add to my already-overwhelmed psyche. If I don't start eating, I can avoid the binge, but then I'll have the guilt over not eating in a healthy way.
I feel like I just want to drink some cranberry juice, cycle through tons of water and maybe some herbal tea, and not eat for the next day or two. Is this truly crazy, or a reasonable reaction to an unreasonable amount of stress? Plus - isn't it a better option than a straight-up binge, which feels imminent right now?