Hi! I just joined the forum.
I'm a 19 year old girl and I started gaining weight in highschool. I was a little chubby all my life. freshman year I was 170 lbs. the following year I lost 35 lbs with a low calorie diet. I got depressed, gained it all back and more and went up to 200 lbs.
I started losing weight the healthy way last summer, may 2011. I'm now at 145 lbs.
lately since april I have had uncontrollable binging sprees from stress and extreme depression. (yes I am seeing a therapist about both)
this week I binged really bad through 3 days and went from 141 lbs-149. it's gone down a bit and sits at 145/146 now...
anyways my biggest concern since starting my weight loss was loose skin. I've stressed about it, cried over it, and worried about it for my whole journey. Religiously losing weight slowly, mositurizing my whole body, using a loofah etc..
despise gaining weight twice and becoming obese I only have a few stretch marks at the top of my thighs, no where else can't see it under clothes. I think my skin is naturally a bit stretchy.
with my binging lately however I'm scared to death I'm ruining my skin even more! which means I may get loose skin
I started this journey to lose weight and feel better about myself. I have extremely poor self esteem. While I am feeling better about how I look, loose skin will completely DEVESTATE me and nothing will convince me otherwise.
I'm tired of hating my body and being the ugly duckling.. I don't want my body looking 60 at 19!
I seriously don't know what to do. I know weight training helps but I'm 19 and poor. I don't have time for gym or the money! and surgery...haha yeah right.
I feel like crying right now... what do I do...?