I had pictures taken of me when I weighed 290'ish lbs (my biggest was 325) and my husband took more of me today weighing 214lbs.
We put the pictures side by side in paint so I could see the change.
I cried. And cried. And cried.
I don't see the girl in the pictures today. I still see the girl that weighed 325lbs. I'm convinced that's what everyone else sees, too. I know that it's me in the pictures from today, but it doesn't seem like it. I just can't see it in the mirror. It was such a surreal feeling today. I'd still like to lose another 64lbs and if I'm struggling to see and accept me at 214, how can I lose the next 64lbs?
I now know my body image issues run a lot deeper than I could have ever imagined.
I thought I'd be so happy to see the change, but honestly, it scared me. I feel terrified and honestly, just upset by it all. I'm sure other people have experienced this. I'm just looking to see how they've handled it. What helped them accept their new selves.