i keep on restarting my weight loss journey. sometimes i feel like a joke, because i can't stay on. so, a few weeks ago, i really started. i was eating better, and less. and i was going to the gym almost every day. i lost 8.2 pounds. well, things have gotten extremely stressful, more so than usual lately, and i've gained those 8.2 pounds back, and more, according to my scale. i can't find my motivation anymore.
my boyfriend of 2 years and i are working through some problems that we've been having. which is hard to do, because we're only together on the weekends--and not this weekend. so i'm feeling especially depressed. this being a weekend when i really need him. not just because of the issues between us, but i just need him. there's major family drama that erupted right now, and i don't know how things are going to be around my house anymore. i'm not sure things will blow over like they usually do, concerning this. my job has cut my hours drastically. i only work part-time to begin with, but i've dropped from 25-30 hours a week to 16. i can't be going to school because i owe them money. everything just seems so overwhelming.
i've changed from the motivated, energized self that i saw a few weeks ago, to eating again. comfort eating. i've been eating unhealthy again, and eating more when i'm feeling down. the days that i only go into work for a few hours, say, 530-830, i find myself in bed until 430. i just don't have the energy, or motivation for anything. money is also super tight, so even if i wasn't feeling so down and wanted to eat right, we can't afford the healthy foods. we can afford the cheap not-good-for-you foods.
i just feel like i'm going to explode. i'm stressed, depressed, unmotivated, and overwhelmed. i don't know what to do.
sorry ladies, and gents.
i really just needed to let that out to somebody.
thanks for listening.