I have no problem with eating like a supermodel (without doing drugs and alcohol ) because my addiction is simply cured. I cured it in July 2011 but since then I didnt lose much until a month ago because I kept believing I don deserve being pretty, since a month ago I think I oh-so-deserve to be pretty so now all the obstacles are gone and I just dont have an appetite.
1) maybe this is another thread worthy but just to ask - did anyone had a weird appetite changes after being on a diet - for example, I became a fish addict, LOL, i want to eat a fish EVERY DAY. Before I would eat it 1x a month. I dont crave meat, sweats (i never liked chocolate though), but I noticed I only prefer fish and green salad. Sometimes I dont have time in my stomach for 30 hours and need to MAKE myself eat. I can thank this to a psychotherapy that made a switch* (this is also topic-worthy but dont want to confuse people bc it might not work for everyone)
TO THE POINT
I got 100+ lbs in 5 yrs, since I was 18. I was only chubby before, and never fat, from childhood. So I got around 20 lbs/year, last 5 years. I didnt have a stretchmarks until 1,5 yr ago when I got them on the inner sides of my arms and on my belly. Now they faded and it looks okay since I am pale so they aren't noticable.
But LOSE SKIN, I read that it rarely is possible to not have it if you were 250 lbs or more.
So I want to avoid having it, and I pray that my relatively short period of being overweight + my age + my good skin (used to be good? ), will minimize the damage
QUESTION
I am 220 lbs now and 5'6'', no lose skin but awful stomach (i will add photos these days) and I am in-a-hurry to get to the some, IMO, "healthy" weight of 190, after that it doesnt matter THAT much, but 190 is upper limit to where I can feel sexy and healthy/healthier.
So theorethically I can lose those 30 pounds in 40 days with my tempo, i've done it before when I wasnt fat, etc., but if that will destroy my skin I will slow down on purpose...
would losing 20 pounds a month, just at the beginning of a diet, be too fast for skin problems?
When I get under 190 I can go with 8lbs per month, i dont care, just want to get to a healthy&sexy level ASAP, at 190
Sorry for so long post - I cant formulate my thoughts