I don't post on here often.. in fact, I haven't been on here much since the beginning of my first semester of grad school (see me --> going crazy).
My TOM has been messed up since I can remember, but I've recently been going to the doc to get it figured out... just to make sure nothing serious is wrong. I've finally been diagnosed with PCOS (after years of suspicion), but my thyroid is still normal.
Now I've been ordered for a glucose test, and here is my issue.
I'm really afraid it's going to tell me something I don't want to hear. I'm afraid it's going to tell me I'm pre-diabetic. I can go get this test done on my own time whenever I feel like it, or not at all if I choose. So now I'm scared. I don't know why, though... worst case scenario: I AM pre-diabetic, although this SHOULD only motivate me further to take care myself, right?
I guess I"m just afraid to hear the truth of my consequences, of what I've let my lifestyle and my body become.
Should I just go and get it done with, and use it as a motivating factor (whether it's positive OR negative)? Has anyone else been afraid of something like this? Thanks everyone.