Red, I can't stay long here, but had to say something to you about the scale. It is SO not your friend!!!! There are so many variables when it comes to weight...are you retaining water, did you just eat, did you just pee
...well, you know. I'm convinced that in order to stay sane - and stay committed - to dieting, you have to be careful about how often you get on the scale. Some here actually weigh in daily. Me? I can hardly stand to do it once a week...and sometimes I don't even do it that often. I feel happier with myself when my clothes start getting loose and such. When I step on the scale...if I haven't lost as much as I feel I should've, I get discouraged, and when I'm discouraged, I figure none of it matters anyway...and yep. I eat. And eat some more.
Hang in there...you're in good company. Everybody here knows how you're feeling, and has felt that way/feels that way/or will probably feel that way next week or next month or the next time they weigh themselves.
That's why we hang out here...because everybody "gets" it.
Don't give up....just avoid the scale when you're feeling vulnerable.
Gotta run...
Z