I have been eating healthy for nearly two years, and I want to lose many many more pounds. I definitely beat myself up badly about failures, but try to recover from them with better planning.
Here's the problem: I think I plan too much.
My mind is always on food. As much as it was when I was over eating, but now it's always focused on when/what/how healthy the next piece of food I put in my mouth will be and how long will it last before I'm hungry again (I think I'm terrified of feeling low blood sugar or feeling sick from hunger).
Before I lost weight, I ate 6-10 times per day, grazing on chips, cookies, cake, burgers, fries.
Now on my weight loss journey, I eat 6-10 times per day, grazing on romaine salads, bean soup, quinoa, vegetables, protein bars...it feels like it's nonstop eating. I have learned so much about food, and I look to eat clean, with plenty of vegetables, lean protein, beans, and my grains.
The problem is my schedule (full time work and full time graduate school), I guess, and my tendency to have a lot of my meals under 200 calories. I need to stay full and healthy, and I need to pack enough food, quickly.
It feels like I cannot ever win or get a handle on this. I say all the time, I just wish there was a pill I could take instead of ever eating again. Sometimes food just haunts me. I'm sick of food