I'm not new to the site. I was using it on a regular basis a few months ago. Unfortunately, I fell way off the band wagon. Without making excuses for myself, let's just say, life has been turbulent these last few months. Things are still pretty up in the air, but I have realized that I need to push through everything else that's going on and try to concentrate on myself a little.
I was looking through my calendar for the next few months and saw something I had marked for the month of October. It said, go to 3 fat chicks thread and update. You see, several months ago, I had made a commitment in a thread called "looking back to when you first began" to stick with 3 fat chicks and my personal goals for 6 months. After the 6 months were up, I was going to go back to that thread and see how my attitude and responses to the questions had changed. It was meant to be motivational, but instead, I felt embarrassed and ashamed. It wasn't long after making that commitment that things began to fall apart and my determination began to waiver.
Looking at that message on my calendar, my first instinct was to not come back to this site at all because I was so embarrassed that I had allowed myself to fail yet again. Then I realized, that's why I keep failing, because I keep running from the problems instead of facing them head on.
So, here I am, faults and all, picking myself up off the floor to try again. Maybe this time I can get it right.