Hi all,
So today I was telling my husband about my new weight loss goals---which I thought were incredibly reasonable. I said---I'm going to try to lose one pound a month.
He snapped at me and said , "I love you, but you are nuts, certifiable." And he meant it. I asked him what he meant and he said, "You've been trying to lose weight since we first met."
After that, I lost it, and luckily I have a sweetie who is super supportive, but I just couldn't stop crying. I've been trying to lose these last ten pounds for about 3 years and it's been impossible. I keep trying though, that's what they say, right, to just keep trying.
I explained to him that he can't tell me that I don't need to lose weight and then call me "big". The other day, some men were over, and he said "Come one Amy, have a shot, you're bigger than both of these guys."
I told him it hurt my feelings when he said that. I told him if he is going to tell me that I don't want to lose weight, he shouldn't call me big like that. Sometimes, he'll even erfer to me as his "corn bred midwestern woman". It makes me feel like such a big girl, and I don't think I'm that big, but it hurts my feelings.
I just kept crying---and on top of all this---I just finished a triathlon. I had to sign up for the "heavy" traithlete category----Athena (for women 150+)----and I even came in last to that.
I am in school right now, and that's stressing me out, I am having some financial issues, and with all of that I just lost it, started crying, and kept thinking what a failure I am.
I still stand strong to my weight loss plan though. In May, I got down to 151----one pound close to my goal! And, then I regained it back, I am trying to focus on maintaince over the next few weeks, anything more is just too stressful.