I have been struggling for the last month. I noticed it when I was trying to get to 220 for Valentine's Day. I noticed but couldn't get over it. I don't know if it was knowing I would fail the challenge or just a general "I don't give a flying ****".
At one point, I kept saying to myself, I'm sick of it, I am sick of it all. I am sick of tracking, I am sick of vegetables, I am sick of lean food products, I am JUST.SICK.OF.IT!!!
I tried to get back at it, but I got sick and then I gave in to being sick and who cares what I eat. I was low on fruits and veggies and then ran out. I used my WW pts on hot toddies, icee pops, cream of wheat, etc - my comfort foods. Then in recovery, I just went whole hog! I could barely keep up with figuring the points and some days I gave up.
I had one good day with exercise and points. Then came the previously arranged lunches out - Indian buffet and large omni-buffet. I did very poorly with my choices and volume. Yesterday, I made chicken noodle soup and ate a nice bowl with TWO bagels and butter!!! This was within a hour of making sandwich rounds pizzas and a fiber bar. I was full and satisfied. But I couldn't not eat the bagels. Ugh!
It has been such a daily struggle and I have been losing the battles.
I am starting again this morning with being on track with food and planned exercise but I again feel iffy and shacky. Part of my mind is planning to make cookies. Part of my mind is shameful for the attitude.
I need guidance, a boost, an attitude adjustment, a kick in the arse - whatever you think is best.