Hello everyone! So today is my first day posting on this forum. Before I joined, I would read different forum posts in this section, and it really inspired me to join myself. I also have a problem with binge eating, and I would really like to overcome this. I know it is what is preventing me from losing weight.
My story…I was always very thin through high school and college. I worked out regularly, and was active in dance and gymnastics. But, I can not say that I was a healthy eater. I struggled with bulimia/anorexia, off and on since I was 12, until I was 18. I saw a therapist at that time, that helped me overcome this eating disorder. In college, I messed around with diet pills. I loved the quick fix that they would give me, but did not love feeling like my heart was going to explode. After college, I moved out to California to start my career. I would go long periods of time without exercising, and I began to stress/binge eat more than ever. I have lived here for almost 6 years now. This last September, I joined an unlimited group personal training (sort of like a bootcamp, combination of cardio/strength training), and I fell in love. In the beginning, I was going 3 times a week, and in the last month in a half, I have started going 5 days a week. I have noticed my body getting stronger, and that has been a great feeling. I also have 3 pairs of jeans that didn’t used to fit me, that fit me now! However, I have only lost 2lbs.
I have really changed my diet in some ways. More vegetables/fruits, lean proteins, whole grains etc. I have been measuring my portions, and counting WW points. People I work with, and my boyfriend that I live with, see me eat healthy 80% of the time. However, they do not see when I binge, because I do it alone. It’s usually in my car on my way to work, or on the weekend when I am running errands. It doesn’t matter that I have just worked out extremely hard, and eaten a healthy breakfast. I have eaten anything from donuts, chips, to fast food. Usually around 350 – 500 calories. I can’t relate it to any specific emotion, except for I feel guilty and terrible afterwards. Sometimes I try and justify it by saying to myself that I burned it off at the gym, or I will burn it off at the gym, but it’s obviously not working.
I really want to lose this weight, and fit back into my skinny clothes. My older sister just got engaged this last weekend, and they are talking about getting married this September. I will be in the wedding, and I really would like to look and feel great! Since I have started to get a little older too (I’m 28) its becoming more important to me to be healthy, and not just skinny. I have lost weight before with FAD diets, but I really want to do it the healthy way this time.