I know how you feel. A few years ago, I lost about 80 pounds and got down to 135. Now, double that, I look back at pictures and see that I looked
great—I looked almost bony in places. But back then, I thought I was fat and was terrified of losing my boyfriend (who is still around).
I don't have an answer for you (I still hate myself) but I hope I can sort of warn you — never thinking I was good enough exhausted me, and eventually I gave up and gained all this weight. Just try to see yourself objectively and recognize that even if you don't lose any weight, people love you for who you are. And I bet those girls go after your boyfriend because they're threatened — not because they think it'll work