I bought a new digital scale today. I talked about my old one having a 10lb swing because it was not balanced, so I even went to one at the mall to verify my weight.
The reading on my NEW scale is 265.4 my old one was in the 250 range and the scale at the mall was 246. I AM SO FRUSTRATED. It is like this last month of work was for nothing!!! So after a month of learning, struggling, counting, and finally beginning exercise, I am where I said I was in November when I first logged on Here.
SOOO.... I am starting... AGAIN at 265 I had a goal of being under 250 by January 1, 2011, but with only 21 days to go, I am not sure how realistic that is.
It is not about a number.... it is about my life... I get that. I am just upset because the number is what we use to measure success for the work we are doing. Yes, my clothes are bigger on me, Yes, I feel better when I am walking. I know this will happen... I just had my heart set on FINALLY ACCOMPLISHING SOMETHING! I really wanted to have that under my belt for the start of the New Year. I am angry, upset, and I feel like a complete failure, even though I know that good or bad, the numbers on the scale have been off for a while. It feels like I gained the 19 lbs in three days. D**N IT!!!