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Originally Posted by saef
Periodically, I find that when my anxiety level is constant even though not very high (when I'm kind of on "orange" alert for a long time), I keep eating some kind of food that I've classed as "safe" but in quantities that aren't good & that indicate some kind of obsessive behavior is taking place. It's a behavior with me, rather than a particular food. If I ban a food, another takes its place. Roasted almonds were one of these foods a few weeks ago. Then Macoun apples. And then Stride Sweet Peppermint gum. One food or another is constantly banned, when what I ought to be doing is addressing the behavior, or, even better, drilling down deeper & addressing the anxiety. I don't know if it's the same for you.
Wow. Talk about spot on. We even chew the same flavor of gum!
I think you are so right that it's flat out uncanny, and you know, thank you so much for posting that. You also wrote something a week or so ago, commenting about the fact that I was paralyzed....
I definitely, definitely do a compulsive thing. I had noticed that the almond thing and the Stride Sweet Pepperment gum thing were going out of control at about the same time. It's the same behavior that I've had all along, the one that got me to close to 300 lbs. And it makes me feel like I've got a lid on the situation, just barely, but at any minute it might blow.
So, after I read your post, I realized that I had time to go to the gym and run, my normal routine since June of 09-- put the kids to bed, go to the gym. But I have not been doing it for the past several weeks, instead, I've been squeezing in my workouts catch as catch can, and that NEVER works for me. But somehow, after I read your post, I thought "I'm anxious, and it would be a good idea to exercise," AND I DID. (back now, had a great run!)
I mean, I don't have to drill down very deep at all to understand why I'm feeling anxious right now. This is an incredibly stressful time for me, not really bad stress, but pressure and anxious making.
I am going to ditch the gum too, and do what I used to do earlier on this journey that was working very well for me-- NEVER skip a workout, to relieve stress, and when I get that cravey "want something" feeling, I'm going to ride it out and give it NOTHING. No gum, no "safe" choice like almonds or apples (yup, I also eat apples...) Just five minutes of meditation.
I'll keep you posted and THANKS SO MUCH for getting it!!!