Hello, everyone. . .I don't know if anyone remembers me, but I joined 3FC back in the summer when I was all gung-ho about losing weight and getting healthy. I remember how I was all excited, dedicated, I posted and responded to posts as much as I possibly could, and I thought THIS time was different. I had all of these lofty, poetic ideas about losing weight and felt inspired. (Remember the "Dreams" thread?) Then I dropped off the face of the planet.
Well, here I am heavier than I was only a few months ago, with no motivation and I am so ashamed at what I have become. I am on a fast food binge as if there's no tomorrow. My cholesterol must be like a telephone number. Physically I have never felt worse. . .my knees ache, and when I try to stand up, it feels like I'm carrying a whole other person on my back. I'm about to turn 31 this Wednesday, and I think I'm trapped in some sort of self-destructive cycle. . .those old birthdays roll around and then you start to kind of take stock. I'm single, and it gets lonely out there. . . most times it's just me and the food.
But I want to get back in there at whatever level I can, and maybe by taking baby steps I'll find my true self again!
Anyway, it feels so good to be back, if you'll have me!
Love to all ~ irishwings