Irish Wings -
You have NO reason to feel ashamed. NONE. I don't think that ANY ONE of us could say that we haven't been in your shoes before.
Might I challenge you however? Because I care about your health? One of the biggest risks to your health is weight swings -you lose, you gain it all back + some, you lose, Gain, lose, gain..
If you get discouraged, and need to take a break - FOCUS ON MAINTAINING. It will only benefit you in the long run.
You can do this!
