Hahaha! You're so funny, LT's girl. Hey....it's a start. And as you continue to lose, the gawkers will improve in quality.
It's funny.....guys check me out now....and of course, it's mainly older men because let's face it, I'm almost 60. But whenever that happens, for some reason I feel kinda guilty and think "man, if they only knew how fat I was". I think that the guilty feeling is connected to me thinking that my slender figure is somehow misleading them and that I'm a faulty product because I am always at risk of getting fat if I'm not careful.....if that makes any sense.
Last week, we had this really weird "brown-out" due to the heavy use of A/C in the area, I guess. And it was so weird because only part of everyone's condo was affected. Certain outlets worked and certain others lost power....and it was the exact same pattern in each and every condo in the building. Like everyone's AC went down but certain lights worked...and others didn't (thank God we had a ceiling fan in here that continued to work...as this lasted almost 7 hours).
Well anyway....the punchline here is that when it first happened, we could not figure out what was going on....so I went outside and there happened to be this heating and air conditioning company guy outside of his vehicle....so I asked him about it....and he was explaining to me what might be happening. I'd say the guy was at least in his 50's....but the thing is, while he was talking to me, he kept looking me up and down to the point of making me uncomfortable. I was wearing tight jeans and a short top.
It caused me to mull over what's worse....having guys (or even women) checking me out and I know it's because I'm fat....versus having guys looking me up and down when I look good. And I have to say, I think it's a toss-up.
But the result was that I felt so creeped-out that I went out of my way to avoid the guy for the rest of the time he was in the area.
deena