Bleh.. Ive been putting off this post for weeks because i kept thinking.. oh you know im just in a funk ill get out of it..
But its been weeks upon weeks and i just cant seem to get out of it.
Im super stressed out with still looking for work, My BF leaves to go to sea in 12 days for 4 months, spring cleaning (im tired of a cluttered house and mis match everything, so we got a new living room set (a really great price!! thank god for the canex), and a new bed (because I have been having soo much trouble falling asleep and our current bed has started to sag and we roll into each other...)
I really keep trying to get to the gym but i just dont. I have been eating healthy, but not as healthy as i was.
I also have this idea in my head that i need to just maintain until i get all the stuff with my house done and wait for my bf to go... then i can focus on me.
Im beating my self up pretty bad and was just wondering.. do other people go through this too and how the heck did you get through it..
I just feel... Lost.
thanks