For a long time I felt like I was unhappy with my weight, but not unhappy "enough". There was a point where I saw a picture of myself and though "is that really what I look like" and started to eat well. I worked incredibly hard at it and lost 25 lbs (about 1/2 way to where I wanted to be). This was on diet alone, and I thought I should start rotating exercise in - after all it's not all about how I look, but about being healthy.
Once I started working out, I started eating poorly. I suppose that the reasoning was that I was working out so I didn't have to eat as well and I could maintain my weight. It's now been two years...I can get on track for about 2 weeks and then I crave bad food (think cheese burgers...) and I gain and lose the same 5 pound over and over. It's interesting too because I can convince myself that it doesn't matter, eat terribly, and then I feel worse afterwords. I also feel incredibly fat, possibly more so than I felt before when I was 20-25 pounds heavier!
Any suggestions on how to motivate myself again? Or ease the cravings for terrible terrible food? A lot of times I find that it's related to my emotions, although it happens with most any type (sad, happy, stressed...)
Thanks so much for your thoughts!