Ok, so Last spring/summer I was on a weight loss mission. I was working out, eating super healthy, etc. My boyfriend, who is in the navy, was deployed and I wanted to surprise him and look super good for when he came back. Well, after he returned home... I thought I could maintain and blah blah blah.. I've gained 30 lbs.
A few weeks ago I got dizzy out of the blue, just constant dizziness. So after a couple days of this I finally went to the dr... I don't have health insurance so I was kind of dreading going. Anywho. I got an appointment with a Dr who I had never seen before. I get there he checks my ears, etc. Says I have vertigo, gives me a prescription says everything else looks good. Then he says, "yeah, everything looks good except your weight. There is nothing normal about that. You need to do something about that. It's just not normal" ugh. Then he goes on to say "you eat too much, you need to eat only 1200 calories a day." I could have died. I was so embarassed, ashamed, you name it. I do not talk to anyone about my weight.. It's just one of those things for me, that is just mortifying to talk about. So for this man, to just say those things to me... It just broke me. I was trying so hard not to start crying in front of this Dr. I just nodded my head and got out of there ASAP. This happened a few weeks ago and I still keep replaying it over and over. I know I shouldn't dwell on it. I know i need to lose weight. I'm trying. I've been trying. Sometimes when I think about it I get so freaking angry, like who the **** does he think he is talking to me that way? I get it, he is a Dr, but I am PERSON. WITH FEELINGS. Maybe I am over reacting. Who knows. I just keep thinking about it. I felt I needed to share this, so maybe I can get past it, and move on.. and lose weight, and get healthier