This is going to sound weird (I feel like a lot of my thoughts start this way) but sometimes when I'm planning my meals, I get really, really angry.
I know we're "supposed" to feel better when we eat healthy, but really, I don't like salad. I'm not a big fan of broccoli. I don't get cravings for apples. When I eat healthy I just feel.. unsatisfied.
I want frigging chicken fingers and fries. When I want something bad and I chose something healthy instead, sometimes I just get upset. It feels like I'm being punished.
My head recognizes that chicken fingers and fries aren't good for me. And yet... still, furious, beyond! I know! Crazy!
There are things I don't care about - desserts, mainly. But today I started really healthy - steel cut oatmeal with pears and dates. And then I was teaching from 9:30-5 straight and by the time I got home, I had chicken fingers and fries. Now I HAD salmon and asparagus in the fridge. Just thinking about eating it pissed me off.
Anyway, I know all of you just LOVE your frigging veggies and can't wait to exercise twice a day. You're leaping and skipping to the gym! But that's not me. It's a fight every damn minute. And I'm fighting myself.
OK, that is my wackjob posting.