My official wt is 200.2#
Maybe next week I will make it to onederland......Cheer me on, please?
Ack! I'm nervous and excited. What if it doesn't happen? What if I self-sabatoge? Ack!!!
Okay, mini-meltdown over. Onederland will come in it's own time. I'm doing everything right 95% of the time. I'm making permanent lifestyle changes I can easily live with for the rest of my life.
It's weird, as it gets closer I get scared. And, it's hard to explain why. I think I'm starting to worry about maintaining, although that is a long way off.
Because I've been worried about maintaining I did some research and found out what my 'real' weight goal should be. It's not as bad as I thought. I could go for 140# and not be considered overweight. But, I'm not ready to change my goals just yet. I also will be able to (theoretically) maintain that weight at about 150 more calories than I am currently consuming. And I find that number not so scary--I guess I've been worried that I'd have to live on far less to maintain for the rest of my life.
Anyway, thanks for listening to me ramble on....Onederland here I come!!!!
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You will be there any day now!
ALMOST THERE!!!!!!!! 
