I completely understand what you are saying, but you know what, I believe that we learn as God intends us to. I was struggling, too, and I did find Joyce Meyer and others, but I had so many problems, that looking back, I can see that I have changed from glory to glory.
We can't handle everything all at once, and God is good to help us learn what we need to learn when we need to learn it.
I had many Christian people in my life who were not helpful, even though they tried to be, "I think"...but it was hard when they would tell me that I was "doing it wrong" and would point out my faults and what needed to change and if they would have just understood that THEY are not the Holy Spirit, it could have saved me a lot of pain and anguish. BUT it helps me in how I deal with people. I pray for God to speak through me and give me HIS words, because I really want to be careful to not hinder others or break their spirit.
I still don't do everything right, and looking back at my path, I have had times of being really in the word, and times of being dry and making a lot of mistakes and doing bad things, and then coming back and going, HELP ME GOD, but I never left Him and He never left me, it was just life. We don't know what we are doing sometimes, but God is so merciful, and if I can relay one thing that will save anyone some of the trouble I went through, it is this JESUS IS OUR DAILY BREAD... and HE IS THE VINE AND I AM A BRANCH...OF MYSELF I CAN DO NOTHING, BUT I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME.
I pray I never forget to have Jesus as my Daily Bread. I NEED HIM more than I need anything else!
The way to have Jesus as your daily bread is by reading your Bible, or another faith filled book, or praying, or listening to Christian Music, or praising or worshiping, or by meditating on the Word, or by Confessing Scriptures, or just being aware of what He is doing in our lives. There are no set rules, no specific amount of time, just be free to worship Him. We were created to have fellowship with God, and that is what He wants. We can talk to Him just like we talk to anybody else. You can even laugh with Him, He can be a lot of fun, and God does have a sense of humor...if He didn't he sure wouldn't have made "MONKEYS"....LOL... God loves us so much and he is not mad at you. He sent Jesus to die for us, because He knew that we couldn't do it ourselves.
He loves us so much, and once you take Jesus as your Savior, you are free.
God already knows everything we ever did, anything we are doing now, and anything we ever will do, and He has already approved us! If we will repent, He is faithful to forgive us. He sure doesn't want us to be hindered from BOLDLY coming to His throne through Jesus...and spending time with our Daddy. He wants us to know He loves us so much and is not MAD at us.