I have my thin days and my fat days in terms of how I feel. Toeing the top of the "normal" BMI range I don't think I can really call myself "thin," but I'm satisfied to be "normal." Here are some thoughts in general (both positive and, well, less positive):
- I feel strong now that I've been lifting weights for six months. My calves have muscles! Who knew? And I can SEE them!!
- Riding a bike will still make your butt hurt even if you're thin. And if you aren't a regular cyclist, it will still make your legs hurt and be hard to do. OTOH if you cycle for exercise, these things become less noticable! Exercise is hard if you're out of shape, no matter how much you weigh.
- Being thin feels COLD.
Without all that insulation it's easier to feel the cold! OTOH I'm hypothyroid so my cold feeling was extreme because of that too.
- One of the best feelings I have is for DH to grab my waist or my ribcage right above my waist. His hands are big and I feel really tiny in comparison, even on days when I think I look fat in the mirror.
- Airplane seats don't feel nearly as small as they used to.
I think the best feeling I have now that I am a normal size is a feeling of empowerment. When I was fat, I would say things like, "Run a 5k race? I could NEVER do THAT." Now it's like, "Do a triathlon? Give me six months to train and I'm there!" There are all sorts of activites that now seem within reach that I would never have contemplated when I was fat. The fact is, I probably could have run that race or done that triathlon when I was fat, with the proper training. But when I was fat, I didn't believe that I was capable of doing it so I would never get started.
(Let's just pretend that I didn't say, "Run a marathon? I could NEVER do THAT!" yesterday . . .)