I feel like I have been slapped across the face, had cold water dumped on my head and Cher yelling "snap out of it" - then I awake from my dream state.
****I AM OBESE!!***
I don't feel overly fat - then I look in the mirror.
My butt isn't that big - then I have bruises from the chair.
I can't be the biggest person in the room - then I "size each woman" and I am.
I am sure I can still fit that size 18 - then there is a gap 5 inches wide before the buttons can close
That XL will surely fit, it looks big enough - then it is like a bodysuit.
I will start my diet tomorrow - then I never follow through.
I think that the reason I have avoided getting my picture taken for the past 15 years is not that I am not photogenic nor that I look too fat,.......
.....I would have to face reality, after all pictures don't lie. I am fat, I am obese, I do have a problem, I am unhealthy, I am weak.
I stood naked in front of the mirror tonight and I cried. When did I allow this to happen??? How did I ever let myself creep past the 200lb mark?
I know that I am ready, I think I just had to figure it out for myself.
Here is to being ready to start the journey
Will I need help - Absolutely!
Now that I have figured IT out - I have to figure out WHAT to do.