Nikkibaby!!! You GOTTA find another place to work. Keep looking, there HAS to be another option. This is like advising an alcoholic to take a job as a bartender!!!! YIKES!!!
Seriously, if you doubt that you'll be able to resist, then start looking ANYWHERES for another job. There HAS to be something else. House cleaning, child care, summer camps, sales associate at the mall, ANYTHING. Keep this job for the time being and do your best, but girly, start hitting the bricks for another job.
Kira