Squirrel, it's definitely not you. This thread got pretty quiet before you got here. I hope everybody's doing OK.
When this journey gets tough, I find it helpful to just focus on one day, one hour, one meal, one bite at a time. Fortunately, that's all we ever have to deal with in life -- just the moment we're currently living in. Not tomorrow or next week or next year. Or even the past, for that matter.
Good for you in fighting off the old "eat-me" demons. Sometimes just going to bed is the smartest thing you can do! Soon you'll have built up a pattern of success and have formed great habits. You're doing great.
--Lauren