Hello ladies -
I've not consistently participated in this thread, but I had the revelation this weekend that I don't have a lot of friends with whom I remain in contact anymore and I have a limited support group around me that I can talk to about things like eating too many cookies over the weekend. I am definitely a person who needs that support and chat, so I'm going to make a consistent effort to participate in this thread from now on, if that is okay.
I've been pretty good about the accountability thread, but this one has more leeway for other things so I'm going to try to do both, plus maybe the strength training thread. I wander into bad places in my head without outlets...
The revelation was kind of sad for me, really...
I've talked to DH a lot in the past, but he isn't in a good place right now with diet and exercise, so I think my talking about issues I'm having seems like I'm rubbing my success in his face rather than looking for help to keep from falling back down.
My mom thinks I'm too skinny, and every conversation about weight makes her either cry or be mean to me, so no more talking to her.
My best friend moved with his partner to Arizona, so I haven't been able to talk to him in a while.
I'm 'breaking up' with a twenty year friend from college right now. To be honest, I've always disliked parts of her personality but she was the one who always called back and made the effort to keep the relationship alive. She is mean and she is toxic, and I realized I can't keep her in my life anymore. I'm struggling with that, too, because I feel a lot of guilt at letting the relationship go as long as it has.
So, here I am. Vowing to participate in these threads so I don't fall back into a negative relationship with the friend I'm cutting off, and so I don't become that person who talks all the time about weight loss and makes the people around her feel bad.
I was pretty hit or miss over the holidays - I weighed 119.3 on Friday, 120.5 on Saturday, 122.8 on Sunday, 120.6 today. I'm hoping to settle back to the 119 I started with, but I did eat a lot of junk. DH's ex wife is one of the greatest bakers I've even seen and she sent us a lot of stuff over the holidays...
I got a new HRM for Christmas myself, and am pretty excited about that. I've already used it a several times. Mom also got me the link to download my fitness data to the computer, which is pretty darn cool.
We have DSS on New Year's Eve, don't take him back until 2 on NYD, so there will be no overindulging that night. Probably will be me sitting up until midnight by myself, maybe eating a carefully planned cookie or cake snack.
Have a good day everyone!
-Shannon