oh honey. how do things look this morning to you? losing parents is hard, even when we're not close to them - i still regret that i didn't make peace with my dad before he went.
instead of eating, sit quietly and think about the impact on YOU of going to see your mom - vs NOT going to see your mom. and make the best decision you can.
we're here for you, darlin. no amount of eating is going to make this go away, so take care of yourself, instead of beating yourself up about what you did or didn't do.