Hola. I've been lurking the forums for a while but never signed up. I guess I'm one of those people.
Anyways, you can call me bimmer for now. I am 21. I am 5'10" and very overweight. I don't wanna tell right now but it's pretty high!
I have been chubby pretty much my entire life. I was 125lbs when I was in 5th grade. ...I lost alot of weight when I hit puberty, then when I was 15 I gained about 80lbs in 4months. I had a new boyfriend and he was very skinny and I am assuming had a high metabolism, so we ate alll the time and guess who ended up on the bad end of that situation!
I lost about 60lbs when we broke up and I was single for about a year.. when I was 19, I met a new boy (who I am with now) who is asian and same thing, skinny boy fast metabolism + likes food + girl who can't take all that food = boy stays same, girl gets bigger! ...So, I apparently have a problem. Since September 2007 I have gained an additional 60lbs... I have been sitting at my current area now since February.
I know I have a problem. I just need support to fix it. I don't know how to do it and don't have the personal relationships in my life to help steer me that way. ...I've read books but my biggest problem is bingeing and overeating in general. I get upset-- I get in my car and go eat.. by myself.. in my car... in a parking lot. ...I get happy.. Same thing. ...I don't eat alot in front of people, I do it when I am alone. Mary J. Blige said, "What you eat in private shows up in public", boy does it ever.
...My screen name says it all. I drove a 350Z, loved that car... but as I gained weight I found it extremely uncomfortable to drive it.. So, instead of losing weight... I traded it in for a BMW 530i.
I am tired of being fat.. I signed up for Metabolic Research Center on April 1st. I go off-plan alot. I make excuses every time. My counselor there is a different person every time... so its not as "personal" as I'd like. I am at the point where I am kind of reassessing my whole relationship with the center and moving on to something else.. but I'd lose the initial $500 I put into it.. plus the shame of "quitting"...
Anyway, this is probably kind of long but I just wanted to say hello and give you a little background info on myself. Hello.