First off I want to thank all of you who are listening to my whining about programs and plans. I think A Real Plan is a great idea. I guess I have up until this post, beem still in denial about how actually motivated I can STAY on my BabySteps Life Overhaul, when I'm just not seeing fast enough results in the onset. I am now realizing I need a major behavior change to at least begin this thing, to shed the first 10 pounds perhaps, that may not be my lifestyle once I'm riding (and increasing distance)and hiking up the mtn longer, and with more intensity, perhaps eventually with jogging intervals. I suppose in fact, that each 10 pound goal may need slightly different rules. But for now, the first 10 pounds is going to need great scrutiny in my food consumption. In essence, I'm ready.... but as far as programs like you are all doing so many different ones, I don't know what to do.
I've been carefully reading replies and I think that yes, it's a matter of timing, that in the beginning of a program, at least to launch it, it is essential to have something dictating my every move, besides just will power. Because I admit, when I'm hungry, or just think I'm hungry (about 10 times a day) I can not adhere to any fragment of will power. I have known times that will power has carried me through, but now that I think about it, (and I"ve carefully thought about it) those were times when I was already somewhat fit and happy about my body. The fact is, right now, at this end of 2007, I am very, very unhappy with my body. The new year may not see results if I just keep giving into this feeling of not caring enough. I know that many of you can relate. In fact, I have the behavior right now of a very obese and self destructive person.... though I suppose what makes it all not so dreary is that I have a great personal trainer in our GermanShepherd, and she gets me out hiking up the mountain 30 to 90 minutes a day. (some days I skip, when I'm really depressed and self destructive, and that's of course, cyclic).
So, given that I really feel resentful of having to spend any money or do math, what are my options ? You all are so resourseful , as a group, and I know this forum is what is going to make the difference this time. I thank you all, ahead of time, for bolstering me up and facing my next year with an attitude that this time I will find myself going in the right direction.
I'm not doing anything which excludes carbs, or requires buying packaged food. I am willing to get some better knowlege about calories, and to keep a food journal , but I intend to continue cooking everything from scratch, as that is my personal philosophy. I essentially know what to do, but find it impossible when I'm so unhappy physically, and frumpy, and give in to every little craving.
Okay, now I hope that I may figure out from advice, once and for all, my next step. DH's Company's Christmas Party tonight, I'm going to eat lots of fattening Mexican food, but tomorrow is the Day I will set into motion, a legitimate Diet Program... and be accountable to it!
Thanks again.