So I've been feeling pretty good lately...lots of compliments, finished a half marathon, buying sizes I haven't seen since I was a kid, back on track with my plan this week so I can start losing again...
Nothing like a picture or two to KILL that feeling.
I went out on the website for my half marathon to see the pictures they try to sell you. The ones of me are HIDEOUS. Don't get me wrong, I'm ridiculously proud of myself for running that race, and I know I've come a long way. I do feel good about that, as I should.
But when I saw those pictures and saw how thick I still am in the middle and how my legs look, I honestly felt like crying. I had to hide the way I felt, though, because I was looking at them with my husband and I didn't want him to see my disappointment. In some of the pictures, you can see the ripples in my legs from my extra skin on my thighs, and it's so awful.
It doesn't quite make me want to give up, but it does make me feel a little stupid for going out and running with my legs showing all the time and thinking I looked ok. I'll still do it, because I have to, but I know I won't feel as good about myself.
Sorry, I try to be upbeat and inspiring here at 3FC, and I've had a pretty good run so far, but today's a rough day. I just had to vent to my good friends here!! I'm trying not to cry!!
Please remember that I know how lucky I am to have come this far and to be in the position I'm in. I just hate to see pictures that make me feel bad about myself after all the work I've done. All the miles I've run, and my legs still look like that? Crazy.