Pretty please no one judge me or say things to make me feel bad about this, I just really needed to get it off of my chest and this seemed to be a safe place to do and you ladies are always making me feel better.
Well, do any of you still think about your first love's.
I do not too often but every now and then. I'm happy with my fiance and I love him with all my heart and soul, it just feels like Brandon (my first love) will always have this tiny peice of me.
I hadn't thought of him in a while and one of my old friends called and started talking about him, telling me how he was doing and all about his new girlfriend and how in love they are and. I just wanted to tell her to shut up. It was weird I didn't like hearing about him and his girl. It's like I was jealouse.
But why? I mean I wouldn't trade my man for him in a million years.
Why do I still have lingering feelings? Is it normal?
Another one of our mutual friends is going into the army so they're having a going away party for him and my fiance and I were invited and I'd really like to go say bye to my friennd but I won't go becasue I don't want Brandon to see how much weight I've gained in the 3 years it's been sinve we last saw eahother.
How pathetic is that?
Why should I care what he thinks?
But I do.